Waking up in a hotel bed two days later, I stretched some as I opened my eyes slowly, My limbs ached and all I really wanted to do was to go back to sleep but I couldn't. I had a snoring Austin beside me. It turned out our surprise road trip had led us to some cheap roach motel in Tulsa.
If I had known we were coming here I really would have told him no. This was the last place on the earth that I wanted to be. Heck being in a hospital, and I hated hospitals, would be better than being here in Tulsa.
Luckily since we had just arrived last night I had yet to run into anyone named Zac Hanson, but knowing Austin as well as I thought him, I was sure he would find a way to go see those damned Hanson brothers. He may not have admitted it much but I was sure he liked them just as much as I did. Though in a way maybe not as much as I liked or well erm loved Zac.
Shaking my head when I realized I wasn't even making much sense to myself, I got out of the bed slowly. I really didn't want to wake Austin up. He could be a pain to deal with if woken up. Walking over to a bag that was by the wall I unzipped it. As it turned out I didn't have to worry about packing my clothes, Austin had done that for me with what little clothes I had left at his house from numerous times I had stayed over.
Grabbing a striped shirt and a pair of skinny jeans I headed into the bathroom to shower. I wasn't a fan of roach motel bathrooms but then again I really wasn't a fan of stinking either. Honestly I didn't see how some men, mainly Zac could go a few days without showering.
Once I had undressed and had the water at the temperature I preferred, usually too hot for most people, I stepped in a semi moan escaping my mouth. A hot shower was what I needed after sleeping in that uncomfortable bed. It was also what I needed to help me face my worries of more than likely seeing Zac again.
I was wrong though if I thought the shower would help me forget Zac or even face my worries. Just the thought of seeing him, while knowing that Taylor had said he was an emotional wreck was enough to make me feel sick and have my stomach twisting in knots. I didn't no I couldn't see him like that. It would kill me.
"Fuck," I muttered harshly as I felt the water get cold. I hadn't even realized I had been in there long enough for the water to get cold. I hadn't even washed off yet. I had been too wrapped up in my thoughts. Shivering some as the water got colder I washed off quickly and then got out and dressed.
Once I was dressed I left the bathroom and stopped in my tracks when I saw Austin now awake and dressed. I swear I truly hadn't realized I had been in the bathroom that long.
Seeing Austin quickly moving his cell phone away from his ear I raised an eyebrow, "Who were you talking too?" I asked as I walked over to the bed and sat down beside him.
"Isaac," Austin smirked as he looked at me. I should have known he was calling one of the Hanson brother's. No, correction, I should have known he was calling Isaac. I was certain Austin had a small crush on Isaac. I was also just as certain that Isaac was as straight as they came.
"I just asked if we could come by the office and see them," Austin answered and I watched his eyes get all dreamy and wishy looking. Yes, he did indeed have a crush on Isaac. I knew that look well. It was the way Zac had looked at me numerous time and it was the way I had looked at him from time to time, though not nearly as often as he did.
Chewing my lip I fell silent. I was afraid to ask what if Isaac had agreed. I didn't want to know if I would be having to do one of the hardest things of my life.
"What did he say?" I asked finally getting the strength to find out my fate. I figured I would have to eventually or just be drug along by Austin if the answer had been a yes.
Looking at Austin smile I could tell the answer before he even told me himself.
"He said yes," Austin responded and confirmed what I already knew. "Now get up off your ass so we can go," he said as he stood up and headed for the door. He was going much faster than I could ever go but then again he had a reason to go faster. He wanted to see Isaac.
Standing from the bed I followed behind him at a pace that was slow. It was like I was marching to my own death as I walked to the car and in a way I felt like I was marching to my own death. I would die by seeing zac, though really dying by Zac would be good, just not good that it would be because he was upset.
Getting in the car once I reached it, I buckled up and looked out the window as Austin started the car and drove. He knew the way to the office like the back of his hand, after all every time I would come here to be Zac's fallback fuck when Kate was being a bitch I would bring Austin with me. That was how he had gotten so close to Isaac.
Before I knew it Austin was parking in front of the office and I was feeling that sick feeling again. Unbuckling my selt belt I noted that my hands were shaking.
"I can't do this," I said out loud. I hadn't meant to say that out loud and my words made Austin close his door which he had already opened.
"Care," he said as he turned to look at me. I couldn't face his stare so I just stared ahead at the building that would be where I died at. "You can't be scared to go in there just because Zac is in there," he said his voice sounding like he knew in advance that things would be okay.
"But Tay said he was an emotional wreck," I stated as I still avoided Austin's stare. I could be a coward at times and this was one of those times.
"And Taylor is a known liar," Austin muttered before he opened the car door again. Seeing him walk out of the car from the corner of my eye I took a deep breath and got out as well.
Walking behind Austin again I went into the office. Being greeted by Isaac standing there as if he was waiting on us I rolled my eyes as he pulled Austin away from me. I was hoping to stay as close to Austin as possible. At least then maybe I would be okay.
Sticking my hands in the pockets of my jeans I began the slow walk down the familiar hallway that lead to the office the boys shared. I could feel myself getting dizzy and my heart starting to race. I wasn't prepared for this, I really truly wasn't prepared.
"Come on Care, you can do this," I whispered to myself once I reached the closed door that held their office. Slowly reaching out I put my hand on the knob and turned it. When the door opened though all I could do was freeze at the sight in front of me. I did want to die but for entirely different reasons than before.
"What the hell," I heard myself finally say and after the words were out of my mouth I watched as Taylor who had been on the floor servicing Zac pulled away. He had a deer in the headlights look. They had obviously not planned on getting caught though in my opinion I thought they should have locked the door if they hadn't wanted that.
Swallowing I mustered my pride as I looked at Zac. His face resembled Taylor's as well, to an extent, besides the deer in the headlights look I was swear I saw confusion and a tad bit of hurt, "Fuck," I muttered as I looked away from him and headed down the hallway and soon out of the office. I couldn't get back in the car since Austin had the keys so I was stuck walking down some Tulsa sidewalk.
If I had known we were coming here I really would have told him no. This was the last place on the earth that I wanted to be. Heck being in a hospital, and I hated hospitals, would be better than being here in Tulsa.
Luckily since we had just arrived last night I had yet to run into anyone named Zac Hanson, but knowing Austin as well as I thought him, I was sure he would find a way to go see those damned Hanson brothers. He may not have admitted it much but I was sure he liked them just as much as I did. Though in a way maybe not as much as I liked or well erm loved Zac.
Shaking my head when I realized I wasn't even making much sense to myself, I got out of the bed slowly. I really didn't want to wake Austin up. He could be a pain to deal with if woken up. Walking over to a bag that was by the wall I unzipped it. As it turned out I didn't have to worry about packing my clothes, Austin had done that for me with what little clothes I had left at his house from numerous times I had stayed over.
Grabbing a striped shirt and a pair of skinny jeans I headed into the bathroom to shower. I wasn't a fan of roach motel bathrooms but then again I really wasn't a fan of stinking either. Honestly I didn't see how some men, mainly Zac could go a few days without showering.
Once I had undressed and had the water at the temperature I preferred, usually too hot for most people, I stepped in a semi moan escaping my mouth. A hot shower was what I needed after sleeping in that uncomfortable bed. It was also what I needed to help me face my worries of more than likely seeing Zac again.
I was wrong though if I thought the shower would help me forget Zac or even face my worries. Just the thought of seeing him, while knowing that Taylor had said he was an emotional wreck was enough to make me feel sick and have my stomach twisting in knots. I didn't no I couldn't see him like that. It would kill me.
"Fuck," I muttered harshly as I felt the water get cold. I hadn't even realized I had been in there long enough for the water to get cold. I hadn't even washed off yet. I had been too wrapped up in my thoughts. Shivering some as the water got colder I washed off quickly and then got out and dressed.
Once I was dressed I left the bathroom and stopped in my tracks when I saw Austin now awake and dressed. I swear I truly hadn't realized I had been in the bathroom that long.
Seeing Austin quickly moving his cell phone away from his ear I raised an eyebrow, "Who were you talking too?" I asked as I walked over to the bed and sat down beside him.
"Isaac," Austin smirked as he looked at me. I should have known he was calling one of the Hanson brother's. No, correction, I should have known he was calling Isaac. I was certain Austin had a small crush on Isaac. I was also just as certain that Isaac was as straight as they came.
"I just asked if we could come by the office and see them," Austin answered and I watched his eyes get all dreamy and wishy looking. Yes, he did indeed have a crush on Isaac. I knew that look well. It was the way Zac had looked at me numerous time and it was the way I had looked at him from time to time, though not nearly as often as he did.
Chewing my lip I fell silent. I was afraid to ask what if Isaac had agreed. I didn't want to know if I would be having to do one of the hardest things of my life.
"What did he say?" I asked finally getting the strength to find out my fate. I figured I would have to eventually or just be drug along by Austin if the answer had been a yes.
Looking at Austin smile I could tell the answer before he even told me himself.
"He said yes," Austin responded and confirmed what I already knew. "Now get up off your ass so we can go," he said as he stood up and headed for the door. He was going much faster than I could ever go but then again he had a reason to go faster. He wanted to see Isaac.
Standing from the bed I followed behind him at a pace that was slow. It was like I was marching to my own death as I walked to the car and in a way I felt like I was marching to my own death. I would die by seeing zac, though really dying by Zac would be good, just not good that it would be because he was upset.
Getting in the car once I reached it, I buckled up and looked out the window as Austin started the car and drove. He knew the way to the office like the back of his hand, after all every time I would come here to be Zac's fallback fuck when Kate was being a bitch I would bring Austin with me. That was how he had gotten so close to Isaac.
Before I knew it Austin was parking in front of the office and I was feeling that sick feeling again. Unbuckling my selt belt I noted that my hands were shaking.
"I can't do this," I said out loud. I hadn't meant to say that out loud and my words made Austin close his door which he had already opened.
"Care," he said as he turned to look at me. I couldn't face his stare so I just stared ahead at the building that would be where I died at. "You can't be scared to go in there just because Zac is in there," he said his voice sounding like he knew in advance that things would be okay.
"But Tay said he was an emotional wreck," I stated as I still avoided Austin's stare. I could be a coward at times and this was one of those times.
"And Taylor is a known liar," Austin muttered before he opened the car door again. Seeing him walk out of the car from the corner of my eye I took a deep breath and got out as well.
Walking behind Austin again I went into the office. Being greeted by Isaac standing there as if he was waiting on us I rolled my eyes as he pulled Austin away from me. I was hoping to stay as close to Austin as possible. At least then maybe I would be okay.
Sticking my hands in the pockets of my jeans I began the slow walk down the familiar hallway that lead to the office the boys shared. I could feel myself getting dizzy and my heart starting to race. I wasn't prepared for this, I really truly wasn't prepared.
"Come on Care, you can do this," I whispered to myself once I reached the closed door that held their office. Slowly reaching out I put my hand on the knob and turned it. When the door opened though all I could do was freeze at the sight in front of me. I did want to die but for entirely different reasons than before.
"What the hell," I heard myself finally say and after the words were out of my mouth I watched as Taylor who had been on the floor servicing Zac pulled away. He had a deer in the headlights look. They had obviously not planned on getting caught though in my opinion I thought they should have locked the door if they hadn't wanted that.
Swallowing I mustered my pride as I looked at Zac. His face resembled Taylor's as well, to an extent, besides the deer in the headlights look I was swear I saw confusion and a tad bit of hurt, "Fuck," I muttered as I looked away from him and headed down the hallway and soon out of the office. I couldn't get back in the car since Austin had the keys so I was stuck walking down some Tulsa sidewalk.